What does it mean that Jesus died for my sins?

I’ve been pondering the message of the cross lately.  I love some of the motivations Fr. Richard Rohr expresses regarding Jesus death representing the killing of the divisions between peoples of the day.  Galatians 3:28 says ‘There is neither Jew nor Greek, slave nor free, male nor female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus.’  Rohr says He came to destroy the “my group versus your group thinking”.  He came to create one new humanity (Ephesians). Doesn’t that sound fabulous?  and impossible?

I have started to feel that the concept of Jesus dying for my sins means for me that I do not have to work so hard at eliminating my selfish ego all the while expanding my consciousness; that Him being fully human and fully God blurs the line for us too.  There is such freedom in this grace that’s been given.  I can wake up and know that God has control and I can surrender the effort, finding ease.  Once again, I can create space between the one thinking the “less than” thoughts and the ONE watching, not judging.  One of the best ways for me to tune in to my inner divinity is through my yoga and meditation practice- aligning my personality with my soul’s purpose.

Jesus may have died so that we don’t have to kill off our egos, hating every part of us that isn’t creative, inspiring, loving, forgiving, and perfect. Maybe the entire world isn’t ready to embrace this new humanity as one, loving, whole, equal species but I am ready to embrace my being that way. We  have God’s spirit within each and every one of us and an ego.  Can we make peace between the two, allowing them the space to  co-exist because  Jesus’ life tells us that our humanity is not the opposite of our divinity, it  is the manifestation of it!!


The epiphany station

why all the static
frenzy and commotion
yours are the hands, feet and heart

this path inclusive of all life’s lessons
awareness holds the key to learn in this school
you are his body
make the connection
yours are the hands, feet and heart

attune your personality
to the smooth sounds of your soul station
to hear the lovely melody ripple forth
yours are the hands, feet and heart

I know GOD


He’s in the guy crossing the 10k finish line
I see Him as the complex emotions cross his face

He’s in the guy singing for change in the subway
I experience Him when we join our voices

He’s in the yoga class
I feel Him in my breath, bones and muscles as strength and beauty and release

He’s in my golden retriever Sierra
I nuzzle Him in the softness of her coat

He’s in my home
I cherish Him as I gaze upon my sleeping husband and children

the return

the heavens are applauding
you can see it, more than hear it
the shaking and swaying of the boughs
can you feel God commanding them to  wave
in their freedom
you have departed, gone your own way
known what it feels like to be separate 
and the pain of losing your center
but ahhhh!!!
what a celebration ensues 
upon your realization
that you are one of the sun’s rays
sheepish, yes
until He calls you- “child, welcome home”